Cursed Be the Day Wherein I Was Born: Let Not the Day Wherein My Mother Bare Me Be Blessed

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[00:04] alrighty Sabbath peace Sabbath peace another opportunity for us to come in [00:09] here and learn of the word of truth that given to us by the most high God all honor goes to the father through the son [00:15] whose name is yahushua in him lies the only hope for salvation we know that it is of Works uh I'm sorry it is of faith [00:23] not of Works lest anyone should boast and give freely as a gift to all who obey him we understand that if we do not [00:29] obey him it is made manifest or made obvious that we do not believe in this state you should expect no good thing [00:35] from the most high however anything that you do get whether it be a gift of tongues the gift of Prophecy or any Supernatural experience that you may [00:41] have it can and it will be used against you in the day of judgment with that said Peace to the saints that are in the [00:46] room to the saints that couldn't make it to the Saints watching in on the camera the ones that haven't even got here we don't even know who they are but no [00:52] peace to the Wicked the only thing we say to them is repent that they might live [00:58] right last week what did we talk about uh [01:05] brother T what we talk about last week uh we did uh I don't think we was on a [01:10] narrative for that long last week was uh let's see talking about Jeremiah we did we finished we was in [01:18] the still in the middle of 2 Chronicles 36 about my man's uh I forget his name [01:25] uh jeya chin I think is the king no we ain't got the jeho chin yet we on jeho Kim all right so we talked a little bit [01:32] about jeho Kim and remember his name his name was [01:37] eliakim right but Babylon came you know what I'm saying I'm sorry Egypt uh yeah [01:44] Egypt came and took uh jehoahaz and then put eliakim as a king and he changed his [01:51] name to jeim right he made him change his name so then jeim then became king [01:57] and um uh and you know started to rule and all that then eventually we read last week that Nebuchadnezzar King [02:04] Nebuchadnezzar came in and he started to you know what I'm saying kind of medle with things and kind of mess some stuff [02:10] up for him um and eventually jeho Kim end up being taken too right so that's [02:15] kind of what we looked at but all this time you have to kind of like it's one thing we haven't really we've been [02:21] talking about the prophets a little bit but we haven't really spent a lot of time really trying to understand how [02:26] many prophets like look at all these prophets like all these is prophets right you know what I'm saying these are [02:31] all different prophets so these are all the prophets that's in this time frame so we in this time frame right here you [02:37] know I'm saying you got jeho has you got jeho Kim you know what I'm saying this the time frame so you got uh Jeremiah [02:43] Joel habac Zephaniah you know what I'm saying uh uh Daniel is about to pop up [02:49] too like all this stuff is happening all at the same time so you just got a bunch of prophets that's telling you and when [02:55] you think Prophets You got to think of somebody telling you like yo y'all about to die died X Y and Z is about to happen [03:02] repent turn from your sin this stuff about to go down he about to destroy all this stuff like everybody warning them [03:08] and sometimes it's cryptic sometimes it's pretty straightforward right when I say cryptic it's like sometimes you don't really understand what he's saying [03:15] you know what I'm saying but sometimes it's pretty straightforward but people are ignoring these things you know what [03:20] I'm saying like like Nebuchadnezzar you had you had people telling people that [03:25] Nebuchadnezzar the king of Babylon you had people telling them that that he was coming like yo he's coming and he's going to be [03:32] a rough one right that's pretty much what all uh grab grab real quick grab [03:38] uh grab Jeremiah chapter 19 it's Jeremiah chapter 19 give me [03:45] verse one right because we can't really get through jeim until we talk about [03:52] Jeremiah Jeremiah was talking to jeho right he was talking to Josiah too [03:57] he talking to all them boy but he was talking to jeho so let's get to uh Jeremiah chapter 19 we gonna start at [04:03] verse one we gonna read 19 and [04:09] 20 20 you know what I'm saying Jeremiah gonna get a little emo in 20 you know what I'm saying back in back in our day [04:15] we used to call it emo you know what I'm saying but he gonna get a little sad in 20 you know what I'm saying this is uh Jeremiah chapter 19 verse [04:23] one d p sister Chris Shabah shalom [04:37] brother T you there Jeremiah chapter 19 verse [04:44] one thus says Yahweh go and get a Potter's Earth and bottle and take the Ancients of the people of the Ancients [04:51] of the priests when he say the Ancients of the people he talking about the old folk he said he said go ahead and go get a a earn vessel and bring some old folks [04:59] with you go ahead keep going and go forth into the valley of the son of hen which is by the entry of [05:05] the East Gate and Proclaim there the words that I shall tell thee and say hear the words of Yahweh oh Kings of [05:11] Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem thus says Yahweh of hosts the god of Israel behold I will bring evil upon this place [05:18] to which whosoever heareth his ear shall tingle So This is Jeremiah telling the [05:24] people look I'mma bring evil this y' say he going to bring evil upon the play [05:30] it's going to be so bad whenever you hear your ears going to darn tingle you be sitting there like ooo that's going [05:35] to happen right keep going watch this because they have forsaken me and [05:41] have estranged this place and have burnt incense in in it unto other gods whom neither they nor their fathers have [05:47] known nor the kings of Judah and they have filled this place with the blood of Innocence they have built also the high [05:54] places of Beal to burn their sons with fire for burnt offering BRS [05:59] unto be which I commanded not nor spake it neither came it into my mind therefore behold the days come [06:06] sayth Yahweh that this place shall no more be called toet nor the Valley of the son of henm but the valley of [06:12] Slaughter and I will make void and I will make void the Council of Judah and [06:17] Jerusalem in this place and I will cause them to Fall by the sword before their enemies and by the hands of them that [06:23] seek their lives and their carcasses will I give to be meat for the fowls of the heaven and for the beasts of the [06:29] Earth and I will make this city desolate and a hissing everyone that passes thereby [06:34] shall be astonished and hiss he said I'mma tear this place up so much that every time somebody pass by it they [06:40] gonna be looking like oh whoa what happened here that's what he mean by astonished they gonna be sitting there [06:45] like surprised like dang who did all this you know what I'm saying didn't this used to be a great City like sheesh [06:53] what do you think they over there doing now they over there digging stuff up every time I got I follow a page that [06:59] every time they dig something up they be you know what I'm saying celebrating it and putting it on the page they be digging stuff up this is an ancient [07:05] artifact of ancient Israel wow this used to be a great city right that's what [07:11] they be doing right now and then you got all these people over there they over there fighting over our [07:16] land just like the book said they would right keep going make a darn fool out of theyel [07:24] they crying about whose land is it you know what I'm saying I'm I'm Israeli it's my land but I'm Palestine or [07:32] Palestinian it's my land like stop both of y'all you know what I'm saying most high God let me I come over there and take it from both of y'all right now he [07:39] lucky he won't let me he'll let us one day he gonna let somebody do it ain't gonna be me you know what I'm saying got [07:45] too much blood on my hand you know what I'm saying what he tell David he said David you know what I'm saying David got too much blood on his hand that's what [07:51] happen when you sin a lot of people don't realize a Christian taught me about David this what the Christian said [07:57] the Christian uh Christian Christian told me he said uh he said David was he like David was a king of War so he [08:04] couldn't build the temple guess who he had to let build it Solomon because he [08:09] was the king of peace I was like oh man it made sense then though I was like you [08:15] right Solomon was the king of I was my Christians I believed every word of it I'm like oh that's why he told David you [08:21] a man a war you too bloody to build my temple because you would been in too many wars you didn't kill too many [08:28] people but in reality that's not what he talking about David had innocent blood on his [08:33] hands right David killed an innocent man so he could sleep with his wife that that's that's a different situation most [08:40] high God said that's the blood that's on your hand right you got innocent blood on your hands that you ain't paid for [08:45] you supposed to die for that so he told him he was like for that reason you can't build my temple I'm GNA [08:52] let your son do it people don't realize Solomon went to war too when Hey Brother t when Solomon [08:59] first came in what' he do what was the first thing Solomon started doing when he came in he conquered all of the neighboring lands made him pay tribute [09:06] and what else he do build the temple no before the temple he had to clean some [09:12] stuff up before the temple yeah yeah he he got rid of he got rid of all of the he got rid of joab and everybody that [09:18] that wronged his pops he got rid of everybody that had everybody his daddy didn't get he came back and got him oh [09:24] you mess with my daddy bow you done oh you did too bow you done you I'mma give you a hands go sit your butt over there [09:30] if I catch you outside of your house I'mma kill you oh you left your house bow you done he got a all that's the [09:36] first thing he did they talk to me Chris gonna tell me he is a he's a king of Peace why don't y'all stop that darn [09:42] line if you tell the truth about the book it make more sense a man like me the book makes sense [09:48] when I understand it the book makes sense when you teach it exactly how it's written it don't make sense when he [09:53] Christian telling me God love everything you do how that supposed to make sense to somebody like me when when I look at the world and I [10:00] see that ain't how the world work then I read the book and I see that [10:05] ain't how the book work either can't tell me no mess you know what I'm saying no you got to tell me [10:10] the truth you tell me the truth it all work out keep going let's see what the book [10:15] say and I will and I will make this city desolate and the hissing everyone that pass by shall be astonished and hiss [10:22] because of the plagues thereof and I will cause them to eat the Flesh of their sons and the Flesh of their daughters and they shall eat everyone [10:29] the Flesh of his friend in the siege of straightness and straightness where with their enemies and they that seek their [10:35] lives shall Smit shall straighten them then shal thou break the bottle in the sight of the men that go with thee and [10:42] shall say unto them thus says y Yahweh of host even so will I break this people [10:48] in this city as one breakes a Potter vessel that cannot be made whole again [10:53] and they shall bury them in to fet so there be no place to bury this will I do unto this place say Yahweh and to the [11:00] inhabitants thereof and even make this city is toet and the houses of Jerusalem and the houses of the kings of Judah shall be [11:07] defiled as the place of toet because of all the houses upon whose roofs they [11:12] have burnt incense unto the host of heaven and have poured out drink offerings unto the other [11:17] gods then came Jeremiah from toet where the Lord had sent him to prophesy and he [11:23] stood in the court of yahweh's house and said to all the people thus says Yahweh of host the god of Israel behold I will [11:29] bring upon this city and upon all her towns all the evil that I have pronounced against it because they have [11:35] hardened their necks that they might not hear my words right when the book say Harden their necks is giving you imagery [11:42] of somebody that's like you think about like an animal like you riding a horse you know what I'm saying you ever seen a horse you know what I'm saying you riding a horse or or uh uh what's [11:49] someone with the hump on the camel you know what I'm saying you riding a horse or a Campell you know I'm saying if you ever seen somebody ride on them they [11:54] ride them like this right and they're going like that and then what they do is they pull on one side you know what I'm saying and [12:01] it it Yanks the the neck of the horse to the right you know what I'm saying so I'mma pull the right and all of a sudden [12:06] the the the horse head yanked that way what happen what happened when the horse head yanked that [12:11] way they start going that way right so you start going then You Yank their head the other way so what you think of [12:16] happen you got you a stiff neck horse you riding too going boom fast somebody make a cut on you y oh you got Chas [12:23] him boy I told you you can't pull his neck cuz his neck too darn stiff that's [12:29] he saying we like like man I'm trying to get you we chasing him we I'm trying to get you to turn get your darn neck and [12:35] your neck darn strong so it's like I can't even get you to turn that's the imagery that he put on us like I'm [12:40] trying to get y'all to turn to see go the right direction and y'all strong darn NE cell trying to go straight still [12:47] it's a cliff right there right I'm trying to help you out it's a cliff right there if we all gonna die if you [12:52] don't turn this way right but we ain't doing it that's how you look at us like we we we not doing that keep going [12:59] that's the end of chapter this is uh chapter 20 this is uh uh Jeremiah [13:05] chapter 20 give me verse [13:10] one all right so I just want y'all to see this is the stuff he talking he telling us this don't feel good right [13:18] when we got our own Nation we our own people and you got this guy that just pop up telling you everybody about to [13:25] die this stuff he about to kill all that he about to bring this thing people gonna walk by and they ears gonna tingle [13:31] when they hear about what's gonna happen people gonna see after it's done and they gonna be looking like this used to [13:37] be a great place you think we like hearing this we got our own stuff my house right here my whole family live here everybody good right and you see [13:44] here telling me all that's about to be G you think that feel good to hear no but watch how they treat [13:50] him now P sure the son of emmer the priest who was [13:57] also chief governor in the house of Yahweh heard the Jeremiah so he has some Authority he the chief governor that [14:02] mean he run stuff right his name is paser so paser he run some things what he do now he heard that Jeremiah [14:10] prophesied these things so he heard about what Jeremiah been talking let's hear about it let's see what he say then [14:16] paser smoted Jeremiah the prophet and put him in the stocks that were in the High Gate of Ben it said he smote him [14:21] yeah what that mean every Bo punched him in the face he looked at him you talking [14:27] to mad they we don't like that this is our home I got me some Authority you [14:33] talking about the temple that I helped run who are you talking to young boy CU you got Jeremiah's a young boy these are [14:40] old heads he talking to they who are you talking to punch his mouth bow sit your [14:46] butt and then they put him where in the stocks that's like you know what I'm saying put them in you know what I'm saying like a little jail you know what [14:51] I'm saying like your butt down why don't you sit down take some time think about what you talking about over here we know [14:57] God in they mind we know God too boy like who do you think you are you running up telling me we going to die [15:03] Babylon going to take us over what do you know who we are Babylon would never you know what I'm saying that's how we [15:09] talking right watch this keep going they put him in the stocks that was in the High Gate of Benjamin which [15:15] was by the house of Yahweh it came to pass on the tomorrow that pasture brought forth Jeremiah out of the stocks [15:21] then said so he brought him out like yeah you you learned your lesson yet watch this and Jeremiah said unto him [15:27] Yahweh has not called by name paser but meor Mish Mish for thus says Yahweh [15:34] behold I will make thee a terror up to thyself and to all thy friends and they shall fall by the sword of their enemies [15:41] and Thine Eyes shall beh hold it and I will give it all I will give all Judah unto the hand of the king of Babylon he [15:47] shall carry them away captive into Babylon and shall slay them with the sword moreover I will deliver all the [15:54] strength of this city and all the labors thereof and all the precious things thereof and all the Treasures of the kings of Judah will I give to the hand [16:01] of their enemies which shall spoil them and take them and carry them to Babylon and th all right so he told him [16:08] he's about to let him out because he's like okay you've been sitting down for a little while let me go ahead and let you out now you probably learn your lesson [16:15] right soon as he start letting Jeremiah out yo yo yo your name ain't pass your no more right your name now your name [16:21] mean you a teor to yourself because you know what's about to happen you and your boys all y'all about to get killed the [16:27] king of Babylon about to come here and this whole land about to be given to him he talking big crazy stuff to him so now [16:33] passer got to deal with that let's see and thou pure and all that dwell in [16:38] thine house shall go into captivity and you shall come to Babylon and there you shall die and shall imagine look imagine [16:46] how this sound though I we have to be able to put ourselves in these position [16:51] because I'm telling y'all most high God let might let us live to see some of this crazy stuff right so we got to put [16:58] ourselves in this position right this is how I look I we putting ourselves in passer position I don't believe what [17:05] this guy is saying right he talking he running his mouth I don't believe him and it's demoralizing it make us feel [17:11] like we losers it make us feel like it make us feel like we gonna lose a war to [17:17] another Nation one of these Gentile Nations that God don't even mess with God do mess with us he don't mess with [17:22] them why in the world would they beat us in a war right that's how P your thinking about it so then Jeremiah [17:29] talking his his mess paser got the authority to do whatever he want to him P sure think he taking it easy on him [17:35] I'm showing I'm showing Jeremiah Mercy I'm just gonna punch you in your darn mouth once sit your butt down and go sit [17:41] in the stocks all right give him a little time yeah I hope you learned your lesson boy you come out Jeremiah popped [17:46] right out yeah okay well your name pass sure not no more not no more now you [17:52] know what your name is you a tear to yourself cuz king of Babylon going to come he going to kill you he going to kill you he going to kill you he going [17:58] to kill you you he goingon to kill so now I feel passive aggressive past you're past you're looking at oh now you [18:03] just saying now you just talking to me your whole family about to get it this that and other d d y'all all going into [18:10] captivity he gonna make y'all slaves over in Babylon now Pastor looking like oh okay oh God told you that huh God [18:18] just went from the whole n now all of a sudden God talking directly about me okay let's see how Pastor deal with [18:26] it and thou sh come to Babylon and thou there Thou shalt die and shall be buried [18:32] there thou and all thy friends to whom thou H have prophesied lies how how it feel how you think it feel for somebody [18:38] to talk to you like that when you got Authority you the man you can have this boy knocked off right now no problems [18:46] right how you think it feel if somebody talk to you like that don't feel good nobody want to sit here and listen to nobody talk to them like that that's how [18:52] it feels that's the type of stuff we going to have to deal with in real life and now we going to have to be in position that are emotions aside is this [19:00] real or is this fake P sure couldn't do that he couldn't set his emotions aside [19:05] he looking like how dare you talk to me like that do you know I'm the go I'm the chief governor I'm the I'm the head [19:10] honcho here and you talking to me like this let's see oh Lord thou has deceived me and I [19:18] was deceived This is Jeremiah talking right comp passer he dealt with him right so now Jeremiah is talking he talk [19:25] he crying out to God now watch what he say oh Lord thou has deceived me and I was deceived Thou Art stronger than I [19:32] and has prevailed I am in the derision daily everyone that mocks me for since I spake I cried out I cried violence and [19:39] spoil because the word of yah was made a reproach unto me and a derision daily [19:45] right so listen he started off by saying yah you deceived me you stronger than [19:52] me I've been you've been making me cry out all these words watch he about to describe what's [19:59] been happening to him as a result of him speaking God's word keep going I said I will not make mention of [20:05] him nor speak anymore in his name he's saying listen I'm done talking about God that's what he's saying right now he's [20:11] saying listen I said to myself I am done talking about God because guess what [20:17] every time I open myself somebody punching me in my face because I'm talking to them about God he like this is not what I signed up [20:23] for he said I'm done talking about God it ain't it don't make no sense I'm done with this watch what he say [20:29] but his word was in my heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones and I was weary with that thing was in me [20:35] though he's like man I didn't want to talk about it but it's just like it's like a burning fire inside of [20:42] me I gotta let it out right that's what he's saying I gotta let this thing out [20:47] so Jeremiah sitting there burning is eating him up he's seeing all this wild stuff going on around him and the most high got giving them these words like yo [20:54] this is going to happen this is going to happen this is going to happen and he see these people walking around it's just like us when we start to know the [21:00] word when we start to know what's right and what's wrong and you see the people walking around like I be talking about these Christians or I be talking about [21:05] the the Hebrew Israelites or these Muslim because I they in they mind they think they know something but I got the [21:12] actual word and I understand it and I be looking at I'm like it be burning me up like no you're you're wrong about [21:17] everything you're saying right be burning up and I gotta I gotta shut uptime like man I ain't about to what I'mma say something for it cuz all the [21:24] boys going to do is I got some of the people they in my comments they be talking about me talking about the way I [21:29] talk talking about how I stutter they be talking they talking about bad some of stuff be funny too you know what I'm saying but they be talking about me bad [21:35] it's like man you know what I ain't even gonna mess with the boy because of X Y and Z I didn't look up people some of these people got online found my wife [21:42] page tried to talk about her right and like oh man you know what I don't even want to deal with this stuff this that [21:48] another but then I think back I'm like well Jeremiah used to get punched in the face all I got to do is deal with [21:54] somebody sending me a tweet man please you know what I'm saying let me tell you what this word say you know what I'm saying let me tell you the word say them [22:00] boys was built for it I think I'm built for it a little bit too maybe not like Jeremiah I don't know somebody punched [22:06] me in my face you know what I'm saying that might be the test that you know what I'm saying but you know what I'm saying you know what I'm saying but [22:12] listen I can deal with a tweet I can and I can shoot some jokes you know what I'm saying so what we got let's do it you [22:19] know saying let me find your wife too boy you know what I'm saying let's do it right let me see keep [22:26] going for I heard the defaming of many fear on [22:32] every side report say they and we will report it all my familiars watch for my [22:39] hate halting saying for adventure he will be enticed and we shall Prevail against him and we shall take our [22:45] revenge on him but Yahweh is with me as a mighty terrible one therefore my [22:50] persecutor shall stumble and they shall not Prevail they shall be greatly ashamed for they shall not Prosper there [22:57] Everlasting confusion shall never be forgotten but oh lord of hosts that triest the righteous and seest the [23:05] Reigns of the heart see is the r and the Heart let me see thy vengeance on them [23:11] for unto he said look he said oh Yahweh who Tri to Reign and see it what he say [23:18] see the what in in the heart right he said oh [23:26] yahwah let me see your Vengeance on these people get in other words get [23:32] these folks for me I can't look I can't throw hands I can't throw hands with uh [23:37] with uh B what was his name pure pure right I can't throw hands with him but [23:45] you can get them for me God that's what he asking for he praying to God remember I told y'all sometimes we be too pretty [23:52] in our prayers we be praying and we be sitting here oh but God just you know give me the heart to forgive everyone [23:59] Lord because uh I want you to give me a peaceful heart and it's another but [24:04] that's not what we feel and what we feel in our heart like for real what we feel is like man I don't like that he talk to [24:10] me that way I don't like that she talk to me that way I don't like that they can get away with doing that to me they [24:15] just cheated me out of a whole job I don't like that and I feel like they should have to pay for it I don't feel like a person should get away with doing [24:21] something like that that's how we really feel and when you private and you praying to the most high God I [24:27] understand when you're in front of people people you don't want to give off the wrong I get it I understand that we shouldn't give off the wrong impression [24:32] but you ain't hiding nothing from God when you praying privately the most high God man you better pray how you feel [24:38] like I don't feel like that's right God and if it was me and if I was God I send [24:43] a lightning Bol right now I'm just saying that that was me that's how I be praying y'all think I'm joking I'll be praying like honestly most high God it's [24:51] your will but that was wrong what they did was wrong and I've been trying to be [24:57] right for a lot out of my life now and I know I didn't did some messed up up too but what they did to me is wrong and I [25:02] ain't goingon to do nothing back to them but you got to get them give me something give me something to keep me [25:08] going because I'm furious right now I can't believe this man did this to [25:13] me right I'm furious right now give me something to keep me calm and sometimes [25:19] something happens sometimes something don't right either way I got to maintain my righteousness but I ain't about to [25:25] hear and pretend what God oh God well just give me the strength to forgive I forgive him but you know what [25:31] I'm saying you do what you got to do you know what I'm saying do something to him cuz somebody got to do something to him it ain't fair that he get get away with [25:37] X Y and Z right that's how Jeremiah talking right now he like listen I get I [25:42] understand God you're the one to try to range now go ahead let me see some Vengeance let me see something happen to [25:49] these folks right let me see keep [25:55] going my boys here [26:01] oh he going down don't come up here making no noise what up boy don't come up here making a whole bunch of noise [26:07] keep going but Yahweh is with me as a mighty terrible one therefore my persecutors shall stumble and they shall [26:13] not Prevail they shall be greatly ashamed for they shall not Prosper their Everlasting confusion shall never be [26:18] forgotten but oh Yahweh of hosts that tries the righteous and sees the Reigns in the heart let me see thy vengeance on [26:26] them for unto thee have I opened my csing he said look unto thee have I [26:31] opened my cuse keep going sing unto Yahweh praise ye Yahweh for he hath delivered the soul of the poor from the [26:37] hand of evildoers H be the day where I was born let not he said do what now [26:43] first be the day where I was born this how he thinking right now you know we oh [26:48] God I know you know I know I've been through a lot Lord but you woke me up this morning so I know that was a [26:54] blessing that's my blessing that's how we be praying right that's not the prayer of a righteous man a righteous [27:01] man saying man cursed the day I was born what's the same as saying curse the day I was [27:08] born like what's another way to say that what's a how how might somebody say something like that now it's like death [27:15] is better than this I wish I was never born I wish I was never [27:20] here right remember curse mean you devoted to destruction so the day I was born is dead right I the day that I was [27:28] born didn't exist some uh that's a person saying I'd rather be dead I'd [27:33] rather not be here some people uh some people use this as uh some people use [27:40] this as an as the doctrine to say that celebrating birthdays is bad or you know what I'm saying like it's evil to [27:45] celebrate birthdays they use that person people these people go through look they go through the book and find everything [27:51] except what the most high God trying to teach him yeah that thing crazy that thing was crazy to me I think this is a [27:58] righteous man trying to tell you that with what I'm going through right now the way these people punching me in my [28:03] face and putting me in jail just because I'm trying to teach people The Right Stuff I'd rather not be [28:10] here right I'd rather not be here this is no different from a lot of the people [28:17] that we live with every day that would rather not be here the only difference is the [28:23] reasoning Jeremiah's reason for not wanting to be here is not because he got a behavior that he's not proud [28:30] of right Jeremiah's reason for not wanting to be here is because he feels like he's doing the right thing he feels [28:37] like he's doing something for the most high God and the results he's getting is that as is as if he's King Enemy Number [28:46] One like like everybody is trying to like everybody is trying to get him so he's looking at it like this is not huh [28:53] that Donald Trump [28:58] Trump 2024 though for sure you know what I'm saying I ain't gonna call him Jeremiah now but you know what I'm [29:03] saying he G you know I'm saying y'all better leave Big Big T alone I don't know why they trying to put my man in jail they put him in the stocks and [29:09] punched him in the face you know what I'm saying but no but if you look at it this is [29:15] depression right this is it that's what he dealing with right now this is what we would call it right we didn't have all the fancy [29:22] words to describe this stuff you know what I'm saying way back when so we just dealt with it now people look I read a [29:28] uh I read two articles I happened upon one article that said the numbers of [29:35] people sinking Mental Health Services have doubled since 20 years [29:41] ago right that's one then I read another one that said [29:49] suicides are higher than they have ever been in history in almost every age [29:56] group [30:02] oh no listen Ain't nobody got no time for you right now you know all these kids all these people out here that [30:08] that's going through it mentally ain't nobody got time for you right now and it's big money [30:14] too big money like so now you got to worry about did somebody if you if you [30:21] Google right now like you about to go to college you know what I'm saying a little bit you might be thinking about college and all that stuff then you [30:26] gonna then you going to Google you going to you know what you want to you want you know what you want to be you want you know what I'm saying what you want to go to college [30:33] for for business you know what I'm saying so how you come up with [30:39] that yeah so you looking at it you looking like you know what type of business you want to open so at some point you gonna be like [30:46] okay what do I want my first business to be right you gonna ask yourself that question and then people you going to [30:52] talk to some people and they gonna be like okay this how you do it this how you do it they going to tell you to start looking what do you think the world needs next [30:59] because you you you're the person creating the business right so they what you think the world needs next so you GNA start googling well the same people [31:06] do that for careers right when they look at like what career I want to go into right do I want to be an entrepreneur [31:12] I'm saying or do I want to go into a career right and the people will decide that they want to go into a career they [31:17] gonna say who everybody do it what are the salaries like you know what I'm saying [31:24] so you start looking at salaries so what happens is because there's such a demand everything the whole world is supply and demand [31:31] because of all of the mental illness there's such a demand of people needing [31:37] mental Services right what happens is now we got to pay mental people we got [31:43] to pay the mental health people we got to pay the therapists the counselors we got to pay the uh psychiatrist we got to pay the psychologist we got to pay the [31:50] what's the other one psychiatrist [31:55] psychologist therapist counselors right we got to pay all [32:00] them so now you see those salaries start to go up because they're such a high [32:05] demand in these fields right so now you got to ask yourself did somebody pick [32:11] this career just because they Googled how much do therapists [32:16] make or is this something they really care about and are passionate about because remember this person will have [32:25] your mental state in their hands [32:31] right you kind of want to know if the person is just writing in and they just doodling that book like they drawing [32:37] they drawing Goku you know what I'm saying you telling them you telling about you you about to offer yourself [32:42] and they drawing Goku like tell me more oh oh you have to think about that [32:51] differently are you using the tools that we talked about last week you know what I'm saying that's how [32:58] they look at stuff they on their computer typing up you think in your mind they write deep notes about what [33:03] you oh they really they really analyzing me in your mind that's what you think is happening they are sitting there [33:09] analyzing me they giving me all the They over there they playing you know what I'm saying what's the what's the game [33:15] that everybody Monopoly that the game everybody playing right now they playing Monopoly with their friend you know what I'm saying sitting there oh really oh [33:23] yeah that's a very traumatizing experience tell me more about it yes huh what' you say Sir uh uh nothing [33:30] I uh yes that is the right way to think about it you know what I'm saying they sit there you sitting there like I don't [33:37] really know if you care all I know is I need help because I'm going through [33:42] something well Jeremiah was going through something who he turned to most high [33:49] God right and I know how that sound I get it man I get it cuz you know when [33:56] you when you somewhere mentally the first thing you want to tell yourself is man ain't nobody been through it like [34:01] I've been through it first thing you want to do is isolate yourself you want to make your situation [34:08] different from everybody else's situation right but what does the most high God tell us who remembers what does [34:15] he tell us about everything that we got to under overcome said that what he say there's [34:21] no situation overtaking you that's uncommon to man I'm paraphrasing he said there is no [34:27] Temptation that can overcome you that is uncommon to man but yah is faithful in that in every [34:35] situation he give you a way of Escape so you know what that mean [34:41] anything that caus you to sin anything that happened that be like and tempt you to sin somebody else has beat it there's [34:48] somebody who looked at that and like no I I don't do drugs there's somebody like no no no no I'm not having sex until I [34:54] get married there's somebody like no no no no no I'm I'm not about to get drunk tonight right whatever one you think of [35:01] there's somebody that was like no I'm good I've overcome that already so then [35:07] we can't lie to ourselves and tell us nobody has been through that ain't what the book say so that mean you don't [35:12] believe the book that's cool if you don't believe the book but say that to yourself don't put yourself in position [35:19] like no I believe everything the word is true and this that another knowing you don't believe it cuz now you just confusing that's where mental illness [35:25] come from lying to yourself you can't lie to [35:32] yourself there over and over again and you know [35:39] why somebody can do the same thing over and over again and expect a different result they lie to yourself and say no it's gonna be different this [35:46] time nah I'mma make this work it's gonna be different some that's insane that's [35:52] crazy you got to be able to assess reality in real life and there's two sides of it too right [35:59] because some people they overhyped their self and they set their expectations real high because that's how they function they high performance so they [36:06] say you know what things are going to be great today this the this the positive affirmation people this is gonna be a [36:12] great day things are gonna be great I'm gonna go I'm gonna have talk to my boss [36:17] my boss is gonna love everything I say we're gonna do a great job you look beautiful today everything right and say [36:23] all these things and then they keep on not hitting their expectations but you know what they get up every day Noe they [36:31] have to explain that your brain has to rationalize all the time that you don't hit have the the correct expectation it [36:38] has to you know what I'm saying so your brain be sitting there like well that only happened because they got into the [36:44] way or because this person didn't help me so that's the people who got got those high expectations like that those [36:50] are the people that have zero accountability it's always somebody else's fault but they but I could have done it [36:55] if they didn't do it because they have to do that in order to keep their expectations High to keep their drive [37:01] going because otherwise if they don't have Drive they scared of what might happen if they lose their drive but then you got the opposite you got the people [37:08] that set they purposely put their expectations lower than their reality right they they know they so [37:15] scared of not hitting an expectation they so scared of something not working out the way that they expected they [37:22] always push their expectations low right and they tell their self it's not going to work [37:28] anyway no it never works out for me that's the negative folks right that's [37:33] the ones that like even when something good about to happen I'mma find a way to mess it [37:40] up right because I'm more comfortable dealing with the low expectation then [37:46] having a high expectation that I really have and then not meeting it so they try to manage it that way it's two different [37:52] people and we just manage we manage ourselves a different way each of those can cause M mental health because it's [37:59] the distance between your expectation and reality whether it's a positive expectation or a negative expectation [38:06] the distance between that is where depression lives right depression lives and the [38:13] fact that reality says you should be here but I I say I'mma Be a celebrity in [38:18] two years if I just keep making these Tik Tok videos right so you put yourself way up here [38:27] and that's where your depression GNA live right in between right or the person say you know what I'm not going [38:32] to be anything nothing ever works out for me but that's not the reality a lot of things work out for you guess what [38:38] your depression live right in between there that's how it works right so then [38:43] you got to ask yourself how do you want to live if you gonna be depressed how do you want to do because I'm not GNA say a [38:50] person that live for the most high God is going to be any different where you think our expectations [38:55] are we got high expectations most high God I serve the [39:02] most high god oh please Can't Nobody Do Nothing To Me the book say all things work out for the good you know what I'm [39:08] saying that's how we look at stuff right so guess what car break [39:13] down I just what Lord I've been doing the right thing I've been doing this I [39:19] really been trying to get my life together how in the world is this my kids mess acting up oh my goodness [39:27] I've been trying I've been reading everybody I've been trying to do that I've been trying to and this still is happening to me what you think that do [39:33] to you because God got our expectations up here but the reality is right here [39:40] nobody's exempt don't think when I'm telling you [39:45] talk to God don't think I'm telling you that oh if you dis obey God everything will be honky Dory that's a lie cuz we [39:53] we started off reading Jeremiah who got a direct communication with the the most high God and guess what he said man I [39:58] wish I was never born I wish I wouldn't even here but there two ways you could be [40:04] depressed and it's gonna take you two different places grab uh grab 2 Corinthians chapter 7 real [40:19] quick H this is uh chapter 7 second uh 2 [40:25] Corinthians chapter 7 give me verse uh what verse I want give me verse eight it's 2 Corinthians [40:31] chapter 7 verse 8 baby you want to do me a favor give me a little [40:36] water water oh here you go what you about to give me okay now that'll work I'll take [40:48] that the poor people water goodness [40:55] gracious this second Corinthians chapter I made you [41:02] sorry though I made you sorry with the letter I do not repent though I did repent for I perceived that the same [41:09] epistle had made you sorry though it were but for a season now I Rejoice not that you look I [41:16] want you to understand what he's saying he's saying I didn't said some stuff to you that hurt your [41:21] feelings and and I'm do not take this as saying oh it's cool to keep real with people even if it hurt their per that's [41:28] not what Paul is saying either right but he's saying I've criticized you I've [41:33] accused you of sin right in the first letter that he wrote to him he accused some folks of sin and he told them how [41:39] to deal with that sin and people were offended that he was associating them [41:44] with that sin so he's saying I know I cause you sorrow with my letter so in [41:50] other words I know I said some things to you that didn't rub you the right way right but watch this [41:57] now I Rejoice not that you were made sorry but that you sorrowed to repentance right he said now look I'm [42:03] happy not that you was made Sor I don't want you to feel bad right he said that's not why I'm happy but I am happy [42:10] that you are sorrowful to repentance in other words that you are sorrowful to the point that you changed your [42:15] behavior right keep going watch this for you were made sorry after a Godly manner that you might receive damage by us and [42:22] nothing right he said because you receive sorrow in a Godly manner right there's no [42:30] damage I didn't I didn't hurt you keep going watch that you might [42:36] receive damage by us and nothing for Godly sorrow Works repentance to Salvation not to be repented of right if [42:44] you have Godly sorrow in other words when you depressed when you sad if you [42:50] take it to the most high God and you let that encourage you into changing your behavior [42:57] to strengthening your faith that leads you to repentance which leads you to [43:03] Salvation from that there is nothing to regret if I make you if I say something [43:10] to my wife and it cause her to be like what please I understand the Bible more [43:16] than you you know what I'm saying that's not nothing I should feel bad about when it's all said and done I don't want her [43:22] to I don't want her to feel bad I don't want her to be sorrowful I don't want her to be depressed but let me tell you something if it turn into somebody being [43:30] righteous everybody got to be happy at the end right A lot of people will take this [43:36] and they will make it let me say mean things to a person with the intentions that it will that's not what Paul is [43:41] saying Paul is saying if I stand on the word and say the word exactly how it is [43:47] and handle the word the way it's supposed to be handled I don't have to be afraid that somebody's feelings gets [43:52] hurt right that's why y'all see no matter who come in they white they black [43:58] you know what I'm saying they male they female they married they unmarried they married again all this it don't change [44:04] what we preach it's not now certainly people have sat here and had their feelings hurt by some of the stuff we [44:10] Tau but it's the same thing I would teach if they wasn't here right that's just what the word [44:17] does it's not about trying to be mean to nobody or nothing like that this is about what the word is saying you got to [44:23] be able to stand on the word and if the word touch somebody and then make them feel sorrowful man they can deal with [44:28] that thing in two ways one way is The Godly sorrow that's going to lead them to Salvation right keep [44:34] going for Godly sorrow Works repentance to Salvation not to be repented of uh [44:40] but the sorrow of the world worketh death the sorrow of the world worketh [44:45] what death so when Judas right y remember Judas right remember he kissed yahua you [44:53] know what I'm saying sold him out he told he told him he like listen it's like it's like telling the police he's like he telling he like listen the one I [44:59] kiss that's him he kissing he gave that's my man you know what I'm saying this that another you know what I'm [45:05] saying that's crazy to us today we wouldn't you know saying ain't nobody you know saying ain't nobody gonna be kissing but in our culture because it [45:10] wasn't we like that today because everybody gay you know what I'm saying so all these people be funny bunny and all this stuff so now we got to protect [45:16] ourselves like I ain't about to be vulnerable like that to somebody who might be trying to you I mean so like no we we not doing that back in up we [45:23] wasn't funny bunny like that in our land you know what I'm saying so we could be more vulnerable to our brother at that [45:28] point because we didn't have a risk of somebody trying to take advantage of us right so we look you know what I'm saying we you know what I'm saying you [45:34] kiss him that's him okay that's him that's the one right there yahushua that's him get him then they gaffle [45:39] yahushua up because they didn't know what he looked like they gaffled him up BM bom bom put him in there put him in jail smacked him up just like they doing [45:46] Jeremiah right and and Judas mind he was looking at it like no I know my man [45:53] yahua that's the most righteous man I know they can't they ain't got no evidence on them I know they want to get [45:59] him I know they want to put him in jail I know they want to put him to death but there's no way they gonna be able to do it because he's never done anything [46:04] wrong I've been around this man for years and he's never done a thing wrong in his mind y'all gonna pay me to point [46:11] him out well give me the money he gonna beat the case and we all win that's how he thinking about it right then what [46:17] happened he G up yahua they find somebody to tell some stuff on them that's not true and then [46:25] they kill him they well they they they they sentenced him to death and when Judas heard that [46:30] they sentenced him to death how you think that made him feel that boy tried to get a money back [46:38] he had expectations of I'm my man gonna beat the case and I'mma get the [46:45] money but when that came crumbling down and he had to deal with this reality down here oh crushed him he said no no no no [46:54] no no I don't want this money take it back guess what they said it's like no [47:00] it's blood on that money you know what I'm saying we can't take that back to the temple put [47:06] temp then he fell back you know what he did to himself what he do to himself T he hung [47:12] himself he hung himself killed himself like they can't they can't put [47:18] blood money in the temple but they can falsely accuse somebody to death though that's the way that's the way our people [47:23] brain work you know what I'm saying try to find we stand strong on some stuff you know what I'm saying the other stuff [47:29] it's just like ain't a big deal but that's what happens that's what depression to do what we call depression [47:34] that's what it do we didn't call it depression back then but we would call this stuff depression Judas would have been depressed in our book but he would [47:41] be depressed or sorrowful according to the worldly sorrow that's why it led to his death whereas Jeremiah although when [47:50] he pray he say man I wish I was never born being vulnerable to the most high God but instead of leading it to his [47:56] death it led him to better Works to better Behavior to more righteousness to [48:02] being a man of the most high God that all of us read about today now right that's the difference in how [48:09] we can handle it and they do this without the understanding that we got [48:14] right we got a different understanding like we kind of we kind of know kind of how this stuff play out because we got [48:20] Paul to explain keep reading Paul watch this Paul Paul kind of will explain some of this stuff to us [48:27] for behold the self-same thing that you sorrowed after a Godly sword what carefulness it WR in you he said what [48:34] carefulness that it brought in other words now now you paying attention to your [48:39] moves he said he said because I accuse you of that sin you was looking like man [48:45] you know what I'm saying you put me on blast like that this that and other man I can't believe you did that I ain't gonna never let you catch me like that [48:51] again I ain't going to never look stupid in front of these people again I ain't going to never make that mistake again [48:56] so he looking at it like oh what carefulness did that now you care about what you do now you paying attention to [49:02] stuff you saying right watch just keep going what clearing of yourselves yay what indignation yay what when he say [49:09] what clearing of your he said he's saying I'm trying to make sure you know that I'm not [49:14] guilty he said what indignation I'm furious about it I care about it I'm F [49:19] on fire I want you to know I'm good I'm a changed person now and I'm mad right [49:26] keep going yay What Fear what vehement desire yay what Ze what revenge and all [49:34] things to clear in this matter that what Paul is saying is [49:41] that's a that's that's an expected result that's the result that we looking for right who we got grab uh Ephesians [49:47] grab Ephesians chapter 4:25 we got we still got a lot to cover this Ephesians chapter 4 verse 25 [49:58] this is good because we just don't under the problem is we don't understand what we dealing [50:03] with there's so much that goes into how we feel and we end up letting how we [50:11] feel run us how we feel ends up making the decisions for [50:18] us and that can't be for us we got to be bigger than how we feel right how we feel got to bow down [50:26] to the most high God we can't be walking around B man you [50:31] know what I'm saying that's just how I felt you know I'm say I did it because that's just how I felt no that's crazy that don't make no darn [50:37] sense you know what I'm saying that don't make no darn sense it's Ephesians chapter 4 give me verse 25 watch the book [50:43] say wherefore putting away lying speak every man truth with his neighbor for [50:48] look hej look put away lying all that lying that you doing that includes yourself let me tell you something I [50:55] said and I think I said this maybe last week or the week before you know what I'm saying it's look it's bad if you lie [51:03] to somebody that's bad right it is [51:08] horrible right if you believe somebody else lie [51:13] horrible but when you believe your own LIE there's no coming back from [51:20] that right there's nothing that you could do if you believe too many of your own lies [51:26] right you can tell somebody else a lie and not believe your own lies and be like okay you can you can navigate [51:32] through that one day right you can get to a place where you can be like okay let me let me clean all this up I'm making a mess right and you could ble [51:40] somebody else lie and be like for real that's how it work and then somebody else gonna come one day and be like that's not how it work he lied to you [51:47] you can come out of that but when you start believing yourself and you lying to yourself that's it nobody can save [51:53] you from that nobody can save you from you lying to yourself right so when the [52:00] book say putting away them lies he talking about lying to yourself too right so read it again he said put away [52:09] lies wherefore putting away lying speak every man truth with his neighbor for we [52:15] are members one of another be ye anger be ye angry and sin [52:20] not he said be ye angry and sin not [52:26] anger is what an emotion anger is an emotion [52:34] right so anger is something that you feel so if you feel angry but you don't [52:42] sin what are you are you really angry or are you your [52:49] behavior you your behavior but what it look like when you mad you specifically when you get mad [52:56] what it look [53:07] like you cry when you mad sometimes you [53:15] be right so we looking at you and because we know you and you crying you know what we gonna be like he just [53:23] mad right we say that's who you are are we saying that because of how you feel [53:28] or are we saying that because of what we see because of what we see now if you were the same angry but [53:36] you said I ain't even about to cry I'm just gonna keep my face straight and I'm just gonna stand here I ain't gonna let [53:42] nobody see it I ain't gonna let nobody know matter of fact I'm gonna put a smile on my face what people gonna [53:50] say like wow that's a happy kid I thought that would make him angry [53:57] because we're not what we feel we are what we are we are what we [54:04] do a lot of times we get caught and we feel like we fake I'm mad right now so I [54:10] got to tell this person how mad I am I'm mad so if I sit here and smileing [54:16] this person face right now I feel fake I ain't about to be faking these people face that a that be we talk look we [54:23] going to work I ain't about to be faking these right people fith you know why because in our mind how I feel is really [54:31] me and as soon as you get to thinking like that something is running you that [54:36] you don't have control over and we gonna talk about what that is but that something is right but you've now lost [54:43] control of yourself as soon as you get to thinking that how you feel is really [54:49] you right you get to letting that stuff boil up in you and then you react and do [54:54] whatever ever it tell you to do right now you no longer under [54:59] control whereas you can handle that a little differently these white folks at my job [55:05] don't deserve to know what's on my mind what have they done to deserve to know what's in your [55:12] thoughts your thought you know how intimate your thoughts are please people can't get my thoughts out of me they be [55:18] looking at me what do you think about that Phil uhuh whatever you guys think you know what I'm saying like you know [55:24] what I'm saying that's my thought like what do you why do you feel like you deserve everything that's on my mind why I got to tell you [55:30] how I feel about you there ain't n of your business how I feel about you the only thing you need to know is I'mma respect you you know what I'm [55:37] saying I'mma treat you right and I'mma do my job it ain't none of your business how I what I think of you what I think [55:43] you about to do or how I think you live outside of work or the the type of performance you have I don't care [55:49] nothing that listen you that's your stuff you need to know this is these are my thoughts and these are precious to me [55:57] I share listen for any of if I share my life and my thoughts with you that mean you special I [56:03] care cuz don't nobody know my stuff don't nobody know about I keep it all all that stuff is pressure to me that's [56:10] crazy I didn't used to be like that though no cuz I was real you know what I'm saying I was real no no no this what [56:17] I'm think no but you a sucker this that and the other I think you do X YZ I gotta tell you CU I'm fake if I ain't [56:23] telling you how much how much trouble you think that got me in nobody got time for that stuff and [56:31] the people gonna use anything you say against you into when it's when it's they time to anyway I'mma give you all my thoughts [56:38] that's mine so that's what the book mean when it say be angry but send not that's all [56:43] right you feel it the feeling is a feeling you gonna feel it you can't get around the feeling the feeling is there you gonna feel it that's all right [56:50] contain your behavior don't react don't let the anger lead you watch he going to keep going watch this keep [56:58] going be angry and sin not let not the sun go down upon your wrath neither give [57:04] place to the devil let him that sto steal no more but rather let him labor working with his hands in the thing [57:10] which is good that he may give that he may have to give to him that need let no [57:15] corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth but that which is good to the use of edifying that it may right he [57:21] said don't let any corrupt communication come out of your mouth in other words don't be out there cussing lying [57:26] cheating you know what I'm saying trying to hurt people feelings none of that stuff he said only do stuff that'll build people up if you saying something [57:34] say it with the intention to look I'm trying to help you out right now I'm trying to build you up I'm trying to make you stronger I'm trying to make you [57:40] better right keep going and grieve not the holy spirit of [57:47] God whereby you are sealed un the day of redemption let us all let all bitterness [57:53] and wrath and anger and clamor and Evil evil speaking be put away from you with all let all bitterness emotion right and [57:59] wrath emotion right and clamoring emotion and evil speaking that's hating [58:06] emotion right all that stuff he said let be done with all that [58:12] stuff because that stuff is g to lead to behaviors you got to nip that stuff in [58:17] the buts soon as you feel it be like I feel that I acknowledge that I feel that I do but guess what that's not me that's [58:24] not going to run how I act that's not going to determine my behavior keep going watch [58:31] this and be ye kind one to another tenderhearted forgiving one another even [58:36] as God for the messiah's sake has forgiven you so now although [58:42] pure punch my man in the face Jeremiah still got to stand there [58:47] and be like this what the most high God [58:53] said he can't get back he can't do nothing and when he feel it guess what he got to do most high God go get [59:00] him go get him I want to see your Vengeance on these people that's how he handled it when he in front of him [59:06] though he got to hold the line he got to obey the most high God at [59:12] all cost no matter what come with it he got to take it he got to eat it then he got to cry about it later [59:19] like man I wish I was never Bor CU he punch me in my face and you him God you [59:24] let him punch me right my face right and he cry about it then you got to wipe it darn tear get back out [59:30] there thus says Yahweh every day for somebody else to punch him in his face or for him to go [59:37] to jail again we gonna read about Jeremiah that's a couple times they punch them a couple times because that's [59:43] what happens that's what they got to deal with as a prophet man the stuff we dealing with ain't nothing we be crying [59:48] about little stuff we ain't dealing with none of the stuff these people deal our prophets we ain't dealing with none of [59:54] the stuff that they dealt with we dealing with stuff that come from our [59:59] decisions we dealing with stuff that come from our past a lot of stuff that we deal with it come from our [60:08] past stuff that we didn't got away with stuff that we a life that we live and [60:14] now we trying to ease out of it be like you know what I'm about to change my life right now guess what most high God [60:19] said yeah it's all going to come back to our kids it happened to every one of us it ain't no way you can get around it [60:25] that's how it happened so now we got to refocus ourselves and got to look at it and say you know what that's all right [60:31] part for the course like Paul did y'all remember Paul Paul's like man most high God gave me a thorn in my darn side and [60:38] I kept praying that like look just take it away take it away and you know what the most high God said to him my grace [60:43] is sufficient most high God that's a bad man that boy don't be saying nothing that that you want to hear he tell you [60:50] look imagine crying to him look most high god I've been look I've been trying to do this right I've been taking care [60:56] of your people this is Paul we talking about I've been teaching all these Gentiles for you I've been I've been doing it for you most high God say no [61:03] you good I ain't changing nothing what I get look what you dealing with is the light version that's the [61:10] grace you think it's rough my grace is sufficient boy shut [61:16] up now we got to refocus ourself because you know when the most high God says that to you guess what he's doing our [61:22] expectations is here right when he say that to you what you think that's [61:28] doing this is reality cuz I know if you stay here what's about to happen to you you gonna [61:34] crash out your depression gonna be right here right let me bring you back down [61:39] let me help you understand what you're dealing with is the light [61:45] version right I'm doing that because I have I'm having Mercy Mercy on you that [61:51] thorn of your side this is the mercy would that change how you look at it that is the effect of taking it to [61:58] God and reading his word and managing your your you manage your expectations through your behavior because now you [62:05] can realign yourself with reality and that is the fight that we got that the [62:11] fight we got is keeping ourselves here not way up here not way up here our [62:16] expectation gonna be real high because of this word or it's going to be real low somebody some people goingon to make it [62:21] low right some people make it low when they say oh you know God blessed me today by waking me up this morning that's low expectations they saying that [62:28] the all the power of God all it is is waking them up that's low expect you know oh I have Miracles every day every [62:34] day you wake up is a miracle low expectations right they depression gonna be right there don't worry about it it's [62:39] there right there to right we got to keep it right here that's it's it's a fight it's hard right you got to do it [62:47] but it constantly takes you reminding yourself of what's really going on what does the real world world look like [62:53] versus what does the book say and managing your behavior and your expectations that way you do that it'll [63:00] be clean right because the stuff that's leading us is not like we call it [63:07] emotions the book will call it Spirits grab Ecclesiastes for me [63:12] Ecclesiastes real quick Ecclesiastes chapter 7 Ecclesiastes chapter 7 uh give me [63:20] verse n Ecclesiastes chapter 7: 9 [63:34] this is Ecclesiastes chapter 7 ver9 then after that we gonna grab uh 1 Samuel but [63:39] first let's do Ecclesiastes chapter 7 [63:45] ver9 I just want to show y'all something real quick because a lot of people don't know [63:51] this a lot of this stuff is not taught [64:05] be not Hasty in thy Spirit to be angry for anger be not Hasty in thy What [64:11] Spirit to be angry be not Hasty in thy [64:17] Spirit to be angry so what do you think anger [64:23] is think it's bad okay grab uh first uh [64:28] 1 Samuel chapter uh one verse 1 Samuel chapter 1 verse1 [64:43] 15 this 1 Corinthians I mean uh 1 Samuel chapter 1 verse [64:53] 15 and Hannah answered and said no my Lord I am a woman of a sorrow sorrowful [64:59] spirit I have of a what of a sorrowful sorrowful Spirit a sorrowful Spirit In [65:06] other words a sad Spirit what do you think being sad is [65:13] most the spirit all the things that we dealing [65:19] with are spirits [65:24] so what's happening is we letting Spirits lead us when we being real when we not being fake in these [65:31] people face when I'm just G to tell them how I [65:37] feel when I'm speaking my truth a spirit is ruling me a bunch of [65:46] spirits be ruling us right when you telling people what's on [65:51] your mind that's a you telling your spirits so that's why the most high God [65:58] is telling you all this stuff got to come into submission to him these are spirits and when we when [66:06] we play around with ourselves like when we let's say we get drunk when you go when you go to the store to buy alcohol [66:13] a lot of these stores got what on the front of them they a wine and spirits don't [66:19] it cuz this stuff this stuff is not it's new to us and understand it this way [66:24] it's not new in the ancient world right we knew that if we got drunk [66:30] and we drunk too much wine then we're interacting with Spirits at that point that's why the book tell us not to get [66:36] drunk right the same thing with this medication sister Danielle was telling us they put her on medication they got [66:42] they give us all this medication well guess what what do you think that's doing when you pop that pill what do you [66:47] think it's doing it's interacting with you in a way that opens you up to Spirits that's why you get [66:54] super doile your brain don't even work you ain't even got the energy to even think [67:00] a different way you just say okay and you just start accepting everything like okay because now what it's done is it's [67:06] forced your expectation to go here because you can't you can't manage [67:11] your own expectations is what the assumption is they say you know what let me help you out do then it forces it [67:17] down here right you're interacting with Spirits now is it a sin to to to to feel [67:25] angry no that's why the man said be angry sin not that's still a spirit is it a sin to take medication no not [67:32] necessarily right as long as you're not abusing it the medication itself is the intention of the medication is to buy [67:39] you time right to buy you time because you might be in a dire situation where [67:45] listen I'm at the point of my depression where it's over you know what I'm saying I'm ready to end it all it's over so if [67:52] you got to make a choice of I got to try to get through this person explain to them how to manate but they ain't got [67:57] time to hear me hear me out for all that but then yeah a person might take some [68:02] medicine but what happens is people stop at the medicine as if that's the Cure [68:08] that's just buying you time right that buy you time and if you use that as the permanent fix now your [68:16] expectations are getting further and further away from reality so now you become addicted to these pills you [68:22] become addicted to this alcohol because that alcohol manage your expectations in [68:28] a certain way but every time you get sober now you got to deal with reality that mean your your depression right [68:34] here right so if you don't break yourself away from these things [68:40] eventually the drugs and that you have to take more I got to smoke more weed [68:45] now right I started up look when I first started when I first started smoking it [68:50] used to be the little you know what I'm saying little tin you remember little tiny little tiny Ro That Thing Up it be tiny like this you hold it [68:57] you every look people be smoking now bro you say this and just keep going [69:04] you know what I'm saying back in the day you smoke it wasn't all the good stuff they got now you [69:09] smoke your chest hot throat all hot everything like that you you [69:16] smoke all right I got it give me some water just that another right and you [69:22] get a little high and it make you feel feel good it's like ohoo I feel good I'm [69:27] high okay but then the next time you smoke I want to smoke a little bit more [69:33] of that joint now I'm graduating the blunts oh now I can't do what they call [69:38] it stress you know what say I can't do stress they I don't know if they call it stress now back in the day used to call it stress I can't do stress I needed the [69:44] what was the popular stuff back in the dayon huh they call they say like The [69:49] Chronic or purple oh chronic yeah chronic was probably purple yeah you got that per you know they used to call it [69:55] right so you got they come up with all these fan now I don't even know what they calling this stuff now boo yummy y [70:01] y y you buy it from darn 7-Eleven you know what I'm saying I'm looking like these people are crazy but it's [70:06] different now it because it takes so much now to help you escape that reality [70:12] because now you get further and further when you get so far away from reality it hurt [70:18] when you get here right each time you get high you it's like this it's like you trying to manage your yourself and [70:24] you like this reality right so it's like okay my high bring me down here and it [70:29] make me think this is reality oh wait I forget this is not reality dang it I got to come back here before I get all the [70:36] way back to because that this Rush when you go like that too fast that's the fall that's the part that make you want [70:41] to kill yourself right so when that start happening you like no no no get high again then you go here so now this [70:48] is the new the new marker that that's like the down point and so your range start going lower and lower so you got [70:54] to keep you got to outpace your death so I got to get high now I got to stay high [71:00] every day all day because if I ever come down I'm might have to deal with this [71:06] huge fall from this high it's a huge fall I [71:11] can't even comprehend how far away I am from reality right so every time I think [71:17] about it pop the pill now I'm on I'm getting high I'm popping pills and I'm getting drunk all of it because all this [71:24] stuff got to make me escape and I got to stay that way ain't no different listen that's drugs it's drugs is easy we can [71:29] always pick on people that do drugs and drink we can always pick on them let me give you another one vacations that's [71:36] the big one now a lot of people a lot of people looking at it like I heard these women talking heard the women talking [71:41] and they said listen it don't make no sense to me to go save up money and buy a house what I prefer to do is have an [71:49] apartment and be have and take a six have enough money to take a 6mon [71:55] vacation I said that got to be the dumbest thing I've ever heard in my life but these are all women and they all [72:02] agree with it respected women I ain't goingon to call them out saying but respected women and they all agree with [72:08] it but the reason is they escaping something there's some sort of reality [72:13] that tells them six months of paradise right is what I [72:20] need that's not reality expectation is here so when you on that paradise it bring you away from dealing with all [72:26] this that's down here I don't want to deal with it my my darn bills I'm talking to this [72:33] dude and you know what I'm saying I don't really know I don't know if he like me or not he always cheating on me and this that I got this is reality but [72:39] you know what when I go to Tulum for a week I could just act like I [72:46] ain't got no cares no worries I don't have to think about none of that stuff but guess what happens when she comes [72:52] back she come back a little bit broker you know what I'm saying a little [72:58] bit more responsibility cuz she got to make up for everything she did that last week right and guess what men doing the [73:03] same thing they taking these trips and they doing they doing men doing wild stuff when they take these trips what I [73:09] hear they doing wild stuff when they take these trips but it's the same thing I'm trying to escape the reality of that [73:16] I'm living in so I got to keep doing it I got to take a trip every month these it's some women that's keep they trading [73:22] a lot to be able to take a trip they letting people treat them in wild ways [73:27] just so they can go to Dubai and when they get there they going to have to do some wild stuff but it's worth it if I [73:34] can escape my reality all right that's something that we got to think about that's something that we got to look [73:40] at right all this stuff all reacts the same way depression sorrowful sad all [73:46] these different things are spirits and these Spirits are leading us but don't [73:52] get it out of your mind that you are the way you feel because you're not that is [73:57] not you just because you feel a way that is not you just because a thought come [74:02] to your head that is not you you are the way that you behave so now if you behave [74:09] according to those thoughts that's you you can change you though right same [74:19] thing same thing spirit of fear the book all over the book it said [74:24] the spirit of fear right that's also a spirit also an emotion right that [74:30] anxiety you can manage it I'm scared I I have to coach my boy through it all the time because he got bad anxiety right [74:37] and I gotta coach him through it all the time it's like I get it I understand I understand it's dark you know what I'm saying somebody ran up in our house you [74:43] feel insecure now because you feel like that could always happen somebody could always every night he downst he checking [74:49] the door somebody left the door and he come back he like he our parent he he come up here y' didn't lock the door [74:56] right because of his anxiety but I got to coach him through it I got to tell him look although it's a it's scary [75:02] although your brain is telling you the worst thing ever is about to happen right you got to feel that and still [75:10] walk downstairs by yourself and turn on the light just so you can remind yourself ain't nothing down you have to [75:16] do that you have to do it I can't go down there with you all the time I can't walk with you you have to you have to [75:22] accept the fact this is how I feel and I believe down there there's definitely a [75:27] monster and somebody's definitely gonna kill me as soon as I touch the bottom of the stairs but you know what seven times [75:34] this week I've walked downstairs when I felt like that with my dad and nothing happened there was nobody down there in [75:40] no M now I'm to the point is I acknowledge this how I feel but I also acknowledge that I'm always wrong now [75:48] I'm managing myself at reality I feel this way I do feel it but guess what I've been been wrong every single time I [75:55] felt this way this week right my chances of being wrong again are very high because what I'm [76:02] assessing is not different I don't have any new information that would tell me [76:07] maybe I'm wrong this time it's the same point of insanity if I keep saying every time the lights off there must be [76:13] somebody in there and every time it's not that's insane right so now I bring myself [76:19] reality is my dad walked me down there and he showed me it wasn't nothing in there and I was wrong I had I have the [76:26] same feeling this time I'm wrong this time too let me prove it to myself boom there's no light I'm not how I feel you [76:33] know who I am I'm the boy who just walked downstairs and turned on the light by itself that's who I am I'm not [76:40] the boy who's scared of the dark all that stuff is just you just have to look at it and say what is the reality I know [76:48] how I feel that's cool that's great and I acknowledge it don't pretend like cuz the reality is you feel feel that way so [76:54] don't pretend like you don't feel these ways that's real right however the reality is that's not how things are [77:01] gonna play out just because I feel that way right bring yourself to where you can manage your expectations you do that [77:07] you'll be all right it take time it take training it's just like everything that we do we got to refocus our starts we [77:13] have to put oursel in the right place but that is the only way to overcome all of this madness in the world it's crazy [77:20] out here it's nuts out here these people were trying to throw so much stuff at our brains at one time man listen book [77:27] is the only thing that's going to Anchor us we got to be able to plant oursel in this book and what the book say and then [77:34] stick with it right otherwise we'll find ourselves lost let's go back and let's finish up [77:41] uh let's finish up uh Jeremiah chapter 20 what verse we leave off [77:47] on 13 13 This is Jeremiah chapter 20:3 [77:53] watch the book say sing unto Yahweh praise ye the [78:00] praise ye the Lord for he has delivered the soul of the poor from the hand of evildoers [78:07] cursed be the day where I was born let not the day where my mother bear me be blessed curs be the [78:14] man who brought Tidings to my my father saying a Manchild is born unto thee making him very glad right he said look [78:21] the man who came to my dad and was like yo yo yo yo baby coming blessings he [78:27] said man curse that man you know what I'm saying let that man die right keep [78:35] going and let that man be as the cities which Yahweh overthrew and repented not [78:40] and let him hear the cry in the morning and the shouting at noon time because he slew me not from the womb or at my [78:47] mother's might have been my grave and her womb to be always great with me [78:53] wherefore came I forth out of the womb to see labor and sorrow and my days should be consumed with [79:00] shame that's the end of it yeah all right so you can see how he [79:07] felt but I guarantee we pick up the next chapter guess what he gonna be [79:12] doing telling the word of the most high God because guess what I feel way it [79:18] sucks I wish I wasn't here curse the day that I was born [79:24] curse the day that my mom gave birth curse the man that came and brought the news to my dad that I was here you know [79:31] why I curse him because he didn't kill me in the womb that's what that's what Jeremiah just said Jeremiah said the man [79:38] should have killed me I'd have preferred that the man killed me because you know what he said after that he said because after I came [79:44] out I just came into sorrow and labor just work and feeling [79:50] bad I want all y'all because we didn't right we didn't read it together I want all y'all to go and read [79:58] Ecclesiastes I'mma show you that that shows you what a Godly depression looks [80:03] like same thing we dealing with the same look it's no different it's no different we dealing [80:10] with the same thing that the world got to deal deal with the only difference is that ours is managed by real reality and [80:21] behavior let me just I just want to show y'all it's Ecclesiastes chapter 1 verse one I [80:29] want y'all to read the whole book we ain't gonna read the whole thing Ecclesiastes chapter one verse one watch [80:35] what the book say Ecclesiastes is one of the books that really stuck with me for [80:41] a long time it me it kind of I I want to say it [80:46] messed me up but it kind of like put a lot of stuff in perspective for me and that was I think that was one of the [80:51] books that had like the most impact on me when I started to understand the [80:59] scriptures this is uh one chapter one uh chapter one verse one sorry what's [81:07] up and I was kind of mad because I never heard of that book before before I read the Bible I was like did they [81:17] eat you want nobody talk about this [81:24] there Ecclesiastes 1 one the words of the preacher the son of [81:29] David King in Jerusalem vanity of vanity says the preacher vanity of vanities all [81:35] is Vanity right vanity think of vanity means like emptiness right emptiness he's saying [81:42] he's saying emptiness worthlessness worthlessness everything is worthless what does that sound like [81:49] depress like depression he open it up like man none of this all everything is meaningless is what he saying that's [81:56] ain't that how people start talking when they depressed why am I even here this stuff is meaningless it's so stupid don't let [82:03] mean anything that's how he opened up the book meaningless meaning everything [82:09] is meaningless keep going watch this what prophet has a man have what prophet hath a man of all his [82:16] labor which he takes Under the Sun a man do all his work and what's the [82:21] point that's the question that he asked watch this keep going one generation passes away and another generation comes but [82:29] the Earth abides forever right he said look people live people die new people [82:36] live Earth stay the same what's the point right that's his question what's the point of all this right keep going [82:42] The Sun Also Rises and The Sun Goes Down And hurries to the place where he [82:48] arose the wind goes towards the South and turneth about unto the [82:53] north it whs whirle around continually and the wind returns again according to [82:59] his circuits all the rivers run into the sea yet the sea is not full unto the place [83:06] from whence the rivers came there they return again all things are full of [83:11] Labor man cannot he said what all things are full of Labor what else man cannot utter it [83:18] uhhuh the eye is not satisfied with seeing nor the ear filled with hearing [83:24] right so he said listen no matter how much you see you going to want to see more no matter how much you hear you [83:30] going to want to hear more he's saiding everything is meaningless there's no [83:35] point to any of it now let's fast forward go to uh Ecclesiastes chapter 12 [83:41] we're going to go to the very end of the book the last chapter and give me the last three [83:48] verses what verse is the last three verses where that start at [84:01] uh 12 you said what 12 12 this is uh [84:06] Ecclesiastes chapter 12 verse 12 watch the book say and further by these my son [84:13] be admonished of making many books there is no end and much study is a weariness of [84:21] the flesh let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter he said let us hear the [84:28] conclusion of the whole matter watch this fear God and keep his [84:34] Commandments for this is the whole duty of man God after he done he didn't searched [84:40] out the whole world he he's one of the most wise people in the entire Earth if you read [84:46] this whole book he gonna prove that to you right or read the whole Ecclesiastes he going prove that guys if you guys [84:52] remember when we was reading Kings how the Queen of Sheba came and heard of Solomon's Fame and heard of all of the [84:59] wisdom that he had and the things like that and she was like the half wasn't even told to me about how wise he was um [85:06] Ecclesiastes Songs of Solomon and Proverbs to give you a little bit of insight of of uh of of Solomon's wisdom [85:13] and that's probably not even a little bit of all of the stuff that he probably wrote or did at the time right we could [85:19] probably say the same thing she said the half ain't even been told to us yeah right but you look at it that is he [85:26] searched out everything and said it's all meaningless but at the very end he said what well the whole duty of the man [85:33] a man is to keep the Commandments of Yahweh what that is saying is although [85:39] this stuff is depressing manage your behavior that's [85:45] it manage your behavior to the reality if you do that actually he's giving you [85:50] reality right the reason why it's depression because our expectations are high what the book is doing is giving [85:56] you reality like it don't mean nothing for you to live or to die don't mean nothing the sun is gonna come up and [86:03] down the wind gonna blow everything gonna happen he going to tell you ain't nothing new Under the [86:09] Sun right so he's telling you all this stuff is meaningless but guess [86:15] what do what the most high God say manage the behavior it's all about your behavior that's who you are [86:22] right that's who Solomon was that's who uh Jeremiah Was and that's who all of us [86:28] are is who we are is how we Act Right change that because you have control [86:33] over that not your emotions not somebody else you emotional somebody can manipulate you if I know every time if I [86:42] knew every time somebody called me a slob that I'm a I'm a I'm a I'm a [86:47] react AR remember this D look I'm walking out of school minding my business the homie right next to me but [86:53] I don't know him like that I didn't like him cuz he said he was from La so I'm like is that another he get into it with [86:59] this other dude dude say you know what I'm saying say whatever he say yell it out he talking to him the whole time [87:05] they just cussing and yelling and fighting and screaming at each other and look me I'm like ain't none of my bit [87:10] I'm talking to him though I'm like yeah you better get at you know saying you better get at him you know say can nobody I'm talking can nobody talk to me [87:16] like that I know if he talking to me like that I get it but you know he talking to you though you know what I'm saying ain't none of my business right [87:23] then he say that one magic word guess what [87:29] what now I got to get in react over one word right now what if he [87:36] know if I get him to react and do such and such he'll come across this street [87:42] and I'll kill him guess what he said to me okay come across the [87:48] street come on right here guess where I was about about to go to my man pulled me he said he said no [87:55] no no he got Tre 57 in his backpack he carry it every day don't go trust me [88:00] don't go if you gonna get him get him right here you know what I'm saying do not go across that street I calm down I [88:07] said all right yo Stephen you don't go either Let's Chill we'll handle it a [88:12] different day in a different way but that's what happens I can say whatever just to lure you in you think you doing [88:19] something I'll lure you in right where I want you and wow that's [88:24] it because that's what anger does that's what emotions do you can manipulate people with emotions when these girl [88:30] when these girls be out here I don't know how it work now but back in the day people have women walking on the street [88:38] to attract men so that they can pay money to be with them right and there [88:44] will be men that's orchestrating this whole manipulating this whole situation you know what they'll do to these women [88:50] they'll tell at first they they showered a woman with love and attention never had sex with him though [88:56] A real one right wouldn't have sex with him right but the woman want to so bad [89:01] because she respect this man he's so wise right never deal with her but then [89:07] after he get to know her he start picking out all of her flaws a you a baby you don't handle that situation [89:13] right your brain don't work right you ain't smart enough you need that's why you need me in your life you need me you [89:20] know what I'm saying you need me this that another so he first build her up then break her down then build her up [89:26] again then break her down then build her up again then break her down until the till the fact she don't even know she [89:33] just reacting to emotions because now I know when I build her up she's happy when she's happy this [89:40] is what I can get out of her okay to happy start running out let me break her down again put her down [89:46] here when she sad I know how she going to react she going to do exactly what I want to do thinking thinking that she not doing what I want her to do then [89:54] when she gonna get tired of that then I'mma build her back up like no baby I love you the whole time you know this that another and the they drive these [89:59] women crazy but that's all manipulation what you think it what you how you think it [90:05] survives emotion if any woman in that position just stoping like listen I am [90:10] not who how I feel I'm how I behave I don't care what this man say to me or how he make me feel I know what's right [90:17] and I'mma do what's right only what you think he gonna be able to do he gonna [90:22] find him another bottom girl to try to break he got to [90:28] move right all this stuff is all about our behavior and our Behavior got to [90:34] line up with the word of the most high God right if it do that man can't nobody do nothing to us can't nobody manipulate [90:40] us can't nobody lie to us can't nobody trick us Can't Nobody Do none of this stuff to us we solid we gonna be boring [90:46] it's boring when you can't manipulate people you know what I'm saying that thing boring when you can't you a manipulator and you like manipulating [90:52] folk and you can't do it oh man ain't no fun they gonna move on that's how you know I'm saying how the dating game be [90:57] you know what I'm saying you out there you single nowadays and you're a man of the most high god a woman of the most high god oh that thing boring you can't [91:03] find nobody that want to deal with you they gonna be looking like oh you don't you don't drink you don't do that a boring but guess what that remove all [91:11] the foolishness out of your way now when you meet somebody people spend they been on dates and dates and dates and dates [91:17] and dates and dates and dates and none of them is the one right they got the same story is you they ain't found the [91:22] one and you ain't found the one the only difference is you ain't wasted your time going on all these dates you dealing [91:28] with the person that's like okay well the person that come to you might actually got some got some stuff because they know who you are and they know [91:33] you're not for all the foolishness now you just weed out a whole bunch of meaningless days right that's how we got to look at [91:40] we gotta learn how to look at stuff as reality as it as opposed to looking at it as these people would [91:47] have right any questions any questions online [91:53] don't look like hey baby let me get some more [92:18] them all right so I'm going give out a award number one student [92:26] award goes to auriel you're the number one [92:33] student because you're amazing I don't know felt like you did [92:39] good you answered questions you paid attention the whole time you know what I mean that's good [92:50] stuff [92:59] [Laughter] you say you got this thing figured out [93:06] [Laughter] huh all right let's pray [93:16] out